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Hello all. I'm just gonna do a short little rant today. I've just always felt down about doing the right thing. I miss the rush. I miss the chase. I think I really like the chaos. I don't exactly know why I fell this way but that's how I've felt. Probably one of the reasons why I was an addict. You don't have to worry about me though. I'm just being honest with how I feel. It's not all the time I feel like that but a lot of the time. I guess when I feel that way I tend to withdraw a little from people so please don't take to much offense if I don't return your phone calls or emails right away. Probably just meant I had a bad day or something. I still have a ways to go I guess when it comes to my personal growth. I appreciate all of my friends and family who have been so supportive during this time for me. And all I can ask is that you continue to be so. I'm trying my hardest not to withdraw so much. Just some days are better then others. Probably the same with your life. It just seems that I never do anything anymore with friends that I've hung out with in the past. I'm not talking about user friends. I just wish I had more stuff to do. I've been applying for a bunch of jobs so lets hope one calls me back. Lord knows I need the dough. well until next time......