1 day at a time

Hello again. I was starting to think about sobriety today and we have this saying in our groups "One day at a time". We all keep track of our sober days but what it really boils down to is just today. Everyday is a chance for failure for me when it comes down to my addiction. There isn't a cure for it. I'm gonna be stuck with it for everyday of my life. Everyday I way up I gotta remind myself to stay sober. Every time I turn a corner there's gonna be something to upset me and threaten my recovery but I just gotta remember not to slip down that hole again. I've gotten better with my coping skills. Before I just wanted to escape everything and try to forget about it but now I tend to just deal with it. I mean what can be so bad? I haven't lost a wife, children, a house, or my life. Everything I've lost I can get back. I just know if I keep going down that road I will end up losing those things. I've signed up for school and will be attending January 4th. I'm real excited. I've decided to finish my computer geek degree. I've been applying for jobs like crazy and shits kinda looking up. I did enter a relationship for a little bit but realized that person would never care for me the way I wanted and I think it was a huge mistake anyways. Like Jay-z once said "I got 99 problems but a bitch ain't one". I'm gonna through that into my repertoire right now. I still am working on myself I don't need to inherit anyone else's shit right now. This could've thrown me back into using again. Relationships have always been the biggest stressor for me. I hate heart break. I just need to learn to pick the right girls. I gotta get out of the pursuing chaos like I've always done. Right now all that matters is getting my life back on track. For today I will remain sober......