holidays merry times

Well Christmas is upon almost upon us. I've really withdrawn myself the last week or two. Currently I do not have a permanent place to live which sucks a lot. My friend I was staying with just took off for Christmas and now I am stuck at a coffee shop waiting for someone to call me back. I guess I don't mind sitting in a coffee shop so much. Just hope I don't have to be here too long. I haven't gone Christmas shopping yet but, I really don't have any gifts to buy. I love giving gifts but I skipped the family drawing because they always fight over who gives better gifts and who's trying to show off or not. It kind of recked the Christmas experience for me at least with my family. Anyways I guess this is a harder time for me to stay sober. As I've mentioned before I really start thinking about my father this time of year and it just makes me sad. We had a tradition where my dad would read the Christmas story out of the bible before we opened presents. I really missed that even though when I was a kid I wanted him to not do it so I could open presents right away. i guess what really bums me out about the whole thing is I'll never get to talk to him about life, about how to handle certain things, ask him about his life, and such. My dad is a mystery for me. Dying at 13 years old for me, I never got to talk to him about a lot of stuff you know. At that age you don't have a serious conversation. Oh well its important I stay on the up and up. So Merry Christmas Everyone! This is gonna be my first sober holiday season in a long time and that includes New years!! Gotta stay strong