a month too long

Wow I haven't posted in a month. sorry about that. I really haven't kept up with this as much as I had thought I would. But anyways the last month has just been hell for me. I was driving one day to give my friend a ride and I got pulled over at the gas station. I freaked out as I talked to the cop cause in the back of my head I knew I had a warrant. So anyways I won't go into any details on what happened (I haven't finished court yet) I ended up in jail again. I got arrested here in st paul and again I had to wait for Wisconsin to come get me. I ended up doing a week and a half here and almost another week over in Wisconsin. The whole time it tore me up to think about the girlfriend sitting out in the world so sad and angry that I was in jail. It really hurt for me to put her through that. But she was so supportive while I was in. She made all my calls for me and bonded me out and everything and I got out thanks to a paperwork mistake in Wisconsin. I was so excited to see her my heart almost jumped out of me when they let me know I was getting out. I was stressed about my job too. I went in there the day I got out of jail and they told me I no longer work there. I thought crap this sucks but its only a job I can get a new one. My landlord is gone out of the country so I have to wait for her to get back so I can get back into my place. My car got towed so The impound lot owns it now. Most of my clothes were in it too. but I can get a new car. Then I found out that I am getting my girlfriend evicted because I got arrested there. Crap no one else needs to deal with the consequences of my actions. I thought my heart was being ripped out of my chest. Oh no. Especially not the love of my life. I planned on getting married to this girl since she also is my best friend. It caused my stress to explode and I havent been able to relax since then. She said she was angry but she realized i didnt do it to cause her trouble. So we talked to lawyer after lawyer. I got a hold of one and he really believed we had a good chance to win. So the stress lifted up and I began to relax a bit. But she never did relax. She started drinking again. The first night she broke up with me then made up in the morning. Now the second night she had me stay at her place while she was at work so I cleaned the crap out of her place to surprise her when she got home. I was excited to see her come home to a clean place and we could just cuddle to movies and have a great night. But she never called like she always does when she got off. I called her a while later and she said the bus was running late and she had a bad day and she'll tell me about it when she got home. But again she didnt call or come home. I got really woried and figured she was at the bar. She finally calls and I go meet her at the bar. She's wasted and won't even talk to me the only thing she said was to f off. I didnt know what was wrong. I just knew she was pissed. So it came to closing time and i went to find her but she took off running to ditch me I guess. I caught up and she told me to just leave. I told her just to go home and go to bed but she just freaks out and long story short she shows up at her place with two dudes with her telling me to leave so I called the cops and she took off not wanting to get arrested for drinking. She kept calling me and telling me to leave . I finally called her to tell her I was leaveing yet she never came back. Then the cops showed up with her at the door and told me to leave she said I was threatening her which never happened I am soo confused what is going on right now. She was there for me everystep of the way til now. I dont get it if she was just drunk and acting a fool or if she really hates me that much. I thought we were soul mates and I dont know what the heck is going on. My heart hurts so bad and I dont know if I can take all this stress and go on. I'm tired and want to give up.....